What You Don’t See
Every time I think I’ve found love or happiness,
Life smashes it with a hammer,
Someone always against me,
But I’ve done nothing wrong or tried to hurt anyone else,
No one knows how hard it hurts me,
My face an elaborate disguise that hides something,
My soul drowns in my tears of pain,
And my heart bleeds out with each concise blow, whether dagger or punch,
If my life keeps on moving forward like this, I won’t last must longer,
My dear friends try to help me, but some don’t know they caused some of the pain,
I keeps those close because one day my heart will breath it’s last breathe,
I try my hardest to drag my feet forward,
To see those that I love, because I don’t know when,
When my last heart beat will be,
I blame myself for the pain caused, only if I had told those I’ve loved sooner,
Then maybe I’d be happier,
But my reluctance to make the first move has proven its bitterness,
Broken my heart a thousand times, and cracked my eyes that see those I love,
But those I love are happy with those that they are with,
Each time I wish upon a star for just one more chance, the further it seems to be,
Happiness and love slip through my hands like sand,
I can’t hold anything any more, everything seems to fall away and brake upon the floor,
Some days I don’t wish to fall asleep or wake up,
Reality hurts and my dreams taunt me,
I want this burden to go away, but I don’t want to hurt those I love,
That reason is why I have hidden it away for so long,
I don’t want to hurt them, but it hurts myself,
Winter doesn’t seem to freeze the pain, and summer doesn’t seem to burn it away,
This is what you don’t know,
This is what you don’t see.