Someone Else
I have become not myself,
The pain inside me has grown out of control, it’s rage burning to intense,
It is beyond my own control, the beast inside me has came out to play,
It’s power unstoppable, uncontrollable,
I am not myself, and forever now will be changed,
I never wanted it, and never dream of it,
Lost and abandoned, my soul grew black with the pain of being put against the wall,
Of being thrown around, not made of fabric I become broken and bleed,
My family angry, my friends themselves put under the gun,
My pain grows because I’m always by myself,
No one there to say “let me help or it will be ok,
Young at heart, and my mind has chosen a path,
Left to do it myself, left to be the only one,
Taking me from where I was cared about and treated well,
Forced to start from scratch, forced to restart my art, my life,
To make new friends, when my friends helped keep the beast quiet, to calm my rage,
You created this, the family pushed towards this madness,
Safety you say is first, but what about happiness,
What happened to that, your family left you,
Told you, to fly by yourself,
Cold hearted, but together we grew stronger,
And I’d like nothing more than to have one less scare caused by their cold hearts,
My strength was born here and my independence started here,
If this madness continues my rage will become deadly,
My emotions are locked in battle, my memories are me,
No one seems to see that, you all have become blind sighted by safely,
But if I’m not myself than who am I, I’m someone else,
I want nothing more than to be left alone, you are doing more harm than good,
You are hurting my friends and they are growing tried,
Only fuel the rage that has been built,
My friends were there when my family left use, they helped heel the worns,
They have helped make me who I am, they brought out the best of me,
Where the family has just walked away,
This all can stop, become someone else’s problem,
Because if not, green eyes will be the only thing you’ll see.