Holding My Breath
Under water I am,
Holding my breath, I put your happiness first instead of my own,
I myself have made a mistake, but for you have made you the world,
I don’t know how much longer I can hold my breath, I am waiting,
Waiting for you or someone to notice that I am slowly drowning,
We have helped each other out, but still a tea spoon can drowned a soul,
And put one’s fire out for good, holding my breath,
Not a gulp of air in so long,
Swimming above me with him by your side,
My tears only adding to water that surrounds my lungs,
I still hold my breath a bottom, hoping that you will look down,
Look down and notice my drowning soul, my eyes dry even though surrounded by water,
But still holding my breath,
I hope that you dive soon, as he leaves and you to hold your breath,
Looking around, you see a blur of a familiar shape,
You surface to replenish your air, only to dive down to bring me up,
As I gasp for air, you ask me how long,
As I smile and say for a long silent time,
You splash me and tell me really how long is that,
And I return the splash back at you, about three or so years,
Afraid I dove to the bottom, only sending you messages to help you out,
Each taking a little air, a little bit of air that I needed to live,
Now how long did it take you to notice, as I hold my breath once more,
Awaiting your answer,…